I hate myself right now.
I just can't seem to do anything right -- like I ever could in the first place.
Why do I do this?
Why do I always find some way or another to push guys away from me, far, far away?

He was so good to me.
I wasn't to him though.
I was selfish.
I wanted him all to myself.
I thought that I could help him.
I thought I could change his bad habits and ways.
I was wrong.

Now I'm sorry.

He was so faithful to me.
I could never do anything to hurt him I thought.
But I did.
I never looked at another guy.
I never cheated on him.
But I tried to steal him away from his friends.
I tried to make him love me.

But I was wrong.
Now he hates me.

Now I'm sorry.

He tried to warm me.
He told me not to become dependent upon him.
He told me that maybe he could never love me.
I tried so hard to make him love me.
I made him my world.
I didn't listen to him.
I fell deeply, madly in love with him.

Now hearts are broken.
Now it's all gone.

Now I'm sorry.

Now it's too late.
Now he doesn't care.
Now I'm all alone.
Now everything is gone.